Sorry to myself; sorry to “nothing”

She is so sorry fail to make herself EMO again in the same period.
She EMO for “nothing” again.
She breach the promise with “nothing” again.
Bad temper, lose control, even she knew this round she was totally EQ zero.

She was the happy girl who in times past made the light melody in surrounding.

It is hard to believe Gods in Heaven capable of such rancour.
Such she had met, was the plan of the spinning fates and it was this plan that she feared.
Neither could she forget the “nothing” when she had battled in the forefront for which she loved.
She remembered there is scars in some where always jump before finish the journey of her life.
Perpetually nursing her heart’s deep wound spoke to herself:
I vanquished? I, to abandon by “nothing” lacking even the strength to keep happy?
The fated forbid me, indeed! Yet I NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE!
She alone, went mad and sinned.
She stolen the happy from surrounding but the Gods caught it and took back.
Otherwise Gods will sweep violently away of every land she step, every sea she swim and the very depths of the sky.
Sometimes she asked:
Can Gods assign me to be with happy and return all great goodness to me?
She knows Gods can give her what she wants, but also will FOC her the challenges task.
This is supply & demand.
She not dares to throw the sky & earth in order to raise mountainous & seas.
So long as she keeps & remain the same, everything will be fine.
She always has a greedy dream which is Gods will say to her:
Please wait in silence, listening keenly, calming your passions and Gods will show you the guide.
She always reminds herself clearly, this is game of subsided of give & take; please treat it as precious secret dream.
She always wishes there is no boundary in space or time.
When she woke up from dream all crush with subjection.
She fall in love but she realizes that their relationship can’t last.
She had no gun now.
The strange; beautiful; dangerous; expected of LOVE she got no right to try.
Love can be hopeless, this is whom epic story?
She had been told by herself please don’t like the hungry ghost measure the road by her no. 11 in day & night.
She trying to download the song she listened few years ago but seem she met the difficulties.
She surfs for searched the song, but those are same title different song.